hey ppl, sorry tat i dint update my blog for three weeks..hehe, was really occupied lately....especially tryin to settle down in the middle of the jungle.Actually wanna introduce u all to my college...haha, its kolej yayasan uem........uem means united engineers malaysia...our rightful owner of this college...its situated in the middle of the jungle, in a verdant uplands.....with abandon bungalows.....and palm trees provide us with the "perfect" backdrop for a isolated college....furthermore, we have a golf course over here......oh ya my college is in lembah beringin, and no kidding, its quite cool over here, no mosquitoes but a lot of insect and monkeys...especially durin the weekends where no one is around......and we have our own football field...with drainage system, it costs us around 1 million to get it resurface and upgrade...hopefully by then it's better than stadium bukit jalil!!!!!! anyway, my 50% of my lecturers are foreigners, mostly english....and a mixture of local lecturers of equal quality. and im stayin in a chalet with three other chalet mates....we have a common room with air-con and two toilets without heater.....by the way even though my college sound very nice, the food here really damn hot u noe, like wad merlin have said, they take it as salt......crazy man every meal so so spicy, u can see red chili every meal, feel like wanna puke sometimes...but many say if compare to boardin school standard, it's so much better....but to me, sorry to say dis to our chef (happens to be a qualified five star hotel chef) the food sucks!!!!

anyway, i will include some pictures for u all soon, kinda busy now, got assignment and homework to do......will continue to update here!!! 

day four, sigh...........i really do miss u, i hav been thinkin for days, n i learn a lot, and realise that u r special to me, u r so understandin, caring and honest to me...i really miss those days where u r so outspoken, telling me everything, from those happy things to sad....i hav a lot to share with u, but lately when i wanna say somethin, i turn to my left and right only to realise that u r not here with me, such an emptiness in me....its different than talkin to my frens....argh....i really regret all that i hav done..its killin me i dun wan to lose u.......since yesterday, i really wanna grab the cigaratte to smoke whenever my frens smoke...they too are depress but al of then stop me from smokin, for the first time in my life, i feel that smokin does no harm to my body......im not feeling sad, but i hate myself for doin dis to u b.....i shud hav appreciate u more, but i din....and i regret it................four days...i have been drivin like mad, speedin, and drove to damai, lundu and seven mile....at the speed of 80-90 km........i like that but i was warned by my frens not to drive like that...and i have been listenin to my mp3..all my linkin park collection.....im like crazy guy havin fun playin around hangin out everyday...but in the end i still cant help thinkin of u...went to waterfron to have a chat with my bro, DJ.....and went to da lai to drink beer just now......its also the firsttime i drink beer not because i enjoy drinkin, but  i wan to relieve my depression..but i do control myself from gettin drunk....i dun wan my parents to worry about me.....i do love them a lot, but i just dun feel like wanna tell them about this.....b: if u r readin this.....u mean a lot to me....but i wont wan to get u attached to me.....like u said no point gettin into a relationship when u cant be with ur other half......i wan u to enjoy ur teenage days......but still i wan to be in close contact with u....i will wait for u.......b i dun mean to disappoint u....i care about u..i dun mean hurtin u..........my days r numbered here.....i wan to hav a heart to heart talk with u.....but i respect wadever decision of urs...i hav to respect wad u want n not just about myself........

btw...i heard a story about long distance....its between our marketin ppl, vitcoria and her bf......they hav gone thru three years of long distance...she said it was not easy but she fully trust her bf that he wont do anythin that would hurt her....until now...they are in stable relationship.....goin to get married soon....so happy for them.

countdown......8 days to go b4 i go kl...sigh

i really miss talkin to u, a lot of things happen to me lately, i dun wanna hurt u, but i just hav to wait wait wait for u....really i cant stand a day not talkin to u.................but i just hav to respect ur decision k? if u r reading this blog, i hope u will make d best decision.im sorry........

today was a long day to me............kinda think a lot lately........very depress but after talkin to my bro, i realised theat mebe i shud let go at the time being , dun force it, time will tell whether or not i will be forgiven. I really wish u could forgive me, i dun wanna be like this......i had done the mistake but i regretted it....three days alredi, and my days are numbered here, i really wish i can talk to u b4 i leave here, but then u r hav a lot to consider, i really wanna be there to help u...but then i cant... =( wish i can talk to u gal...i dun wan to do this to u, but i will wait till u wanna talk to me, i hope it will b b4 i leave kch..........i miss u honestly, not talkin to u make me realise that u r special to me......im not myself lately.....please forgive me