today was a long day to me............kinda think a lot lately........very depress but after talkin to my bro, i realised theat mebe i shud let go at the time being , dun force it, time will tell whether or not i will be forgiven. I really wish u could forgive me, i dun wanna be like this......i had done the mistake but i regretted it....three days alredi, and my days are numbered here, i really wish i can talk to u b4 i leave here, but then u r hav a lot to consider, i really wanna be there to help u...but then i cant... =( wish i can talk to u gal...i dun wan to do this to u, but i will wait till u wanna talk to me, i hope it will b b4 i leave kch..........i miss u honestly, not talkin to u make me realise that u r special to me......im not myself lately.....please forgive me